Ok! So, on the fact i havent been on DA for around 4 months now, i literally have at least 15.5K notifications... i dunno what im gonna do with my this account X(
School started beginning of August and its goin pretty well, decent grades without fail, friends are increasing as i go through this time in my life. I've gotten into music (Monstercat in particular, the best
), got over my addiction of porn (but its obviously still on my DA account, but i dont mind it), the thing about my addiction is that i masturbate to it and i thought it was a really bad thing to do especially in my teen years :/
Relationships... yeee about that (story time :3), i had mixed feelings about this girl cuz :i thought she was the one and shes real pretty and all" (pretty dumb of me to say these things right? yea, im an idiot) and of whom i never talked to, but i go up to her anyways on my birthday (one week before last day of school, May 22) and i said "i like you, a lot", unfortunately she liked me back cuz she said im nice (and i was like "is that it?" in my head D: ), she was my first kiss, EVER. She told me she loved me, i dont know why, she lied to me about having a phone number so that i could call her, she lied about loving me, yep an idiot for love. Ok, so over summer break i got her earrings. And on the first day of school i kissed her very awkwardly, next day she gave back the earrings i gave her and she wrote some kind of "letter" explaining why she doesnt like me anymore instead of saying this stuff to my face; she was cheating on me with 2 guys (her best friend and some other dude), family problems, a boyfriend she cant keep up with that she doesnt know and some other stuff i cant remember
i am actually happy for her, she chooses who she likes and i appreciate her decision, but all the pda in school is overwhelming, its just everwhere, and i wasnt really mad/sad that day, i was pretty chill, i didnt really care either, doesnt matter who i am, there will always be someone better (i learned myself) and love sucks (friends taught me). and then i realized single life is best life
Overall, girls and love suck, dont ever fall in love in the future, keep working hard, have fun, be happy, go do something with your life that will distract you from what is temporary (such as material items and love) so you can feel like your awesome (moral of story)
i hope everyone here that i follow on DA knows i am still here, im not dead, and im not just a lone follower of likable art, i am my own individual person and will strive to keep in contact with the people i love here <3 love you guys, stay awesome, have an amazing week